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Post by Caitlyn & Tank on May 12, 2014 10:24:46 GMT -7
I made a memorial board with a bunch of pictures of Tank..It helps a little. I sleep with his collar at night because IIt's the closest thing to holding him. It's really messing with me mentally and physically losing him.
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Sabrina
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Post by Sabrina on May 12, 2014 15:10:43 GMT -7
)))Hugs((( to you, Caitlyn.
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Post by Cassie & Willow on May 13, 2014 12:09:01 GMT -7
I am so sorry Caitlyn! My heart breaks for you and Tank. I lost my 4 1/2 y.o. Willow to myelomelacia on March 17th this year as well. There were less than 48 hours from the first indication there was something wrong with her physically until the time she was gone forever. I was in shock, I was devastated and I thought I was going to be physically ill. Just know that someday you will realize there is absolutely nothing you could have done to have made a difference in Tank's particular case. I don't think I even realized this myself until I read your story. It's unfair, and you and Tank have been cheated, just like Willow has been cheated. The grief you feel for Tank is very real, very painful, but it is a testament to the love you have for him. No disease can take that away from you.
I miss my Willow with everything I have, and I haven't gotten to the point where "it's gotten easier". I've never felt so helpless in my life as I have for her. She was a beautiful, happy, free-spirited girl, like no dachshund I've ever met before or ever will again, and I had only 15 months with her from the time I rescued her until her death. The grief I feel for her is still very painful, and I still cry frequently. The only thing I do know is there was no choice for Willow and no choice for Tank but the ones we made, and we both made them in the ultimate, final act of love.
Please take care and I hope we both get to the point someday when "it's easier". Express your grief in whatever manner you can to help you cope. Surround yourself by people who understand and who are dog people, or have found themselves in similar circumstances. We get it.
Cassie
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Post by Caitlyn & Tank on May 13, 2014 17:15:30 GMT -7
Cassie thank you. For sharing you story, I'm so sorry that you've been through this pain.My heart aches and I imagine yours does too. Its not fair that this happened to Willow or Tank. I wish there was something we could have done for them. It's such a helpless feeling watching them in that pain with that awful disease. I had Tank for the whole 5 years of his life. He was my bestfriend, not just a dog. Hearing stories similar to Tanks helps me alot. It helps to realize I made the best decision I could for him. Even if it killed me inside. I recently started a journal kind of thing. I'm writing Tank everyday and in a way it helps. I can't sleep at night unless his collar is with me. I hope that both you and I can find a way to help ease the pain. Although it will never go away.  Again sorry for your loss and I know your pain. |
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